Healing takes time
It takes need
It takes courage
After forgetting who you are
Everything you enjoy independent of another human being or a situation
The feeling like you can go on
Because something has been removed from your life, from your world, from your perspective
So now you have to take a step back and reflect on who you were before all this happened
I loved him and honestly i still do, but he was not good to me
Kept giving up and dropping however every time he came back
I did it for the last time i hope, and genuinely pray not to let myself go back there
But when someone’s comes in your life and hands you a flashlight that lets you torch right through yourself and look into your soul, into yourself, into everything you have become and you find that you can’t recognize yourself anymore!!!!!!
Its just heartbreaking
That as you gave someone the intangible world everyday, you washed yours away and broke your heart everyday.
When someone holds your hand and you start to ask why they do?
When someone communicates with you in a clear manner and you start to realise its not impossible for someone to do
When someone understands and wants to know everything about you , to know why you are the way you are, but your guard now built up and your trust issues shattered
When someone is genuinely interested in you now but you’ve heard a lot of it and now it is all so cliché and pointless
I could go on and on but i won’t, because when you lose yourself, sometimes you can’t put it in words but your actions portray it all.
When i talk about healing, i am not talking about love independently, i am talking about friendship, family relationships, childhood trauma, mental healthy, social problems.
Everything that affects your insides and disintegrates your mental, psychological and emotional well being.
There is more out there
More than that person your so stuck on
More than your rigid perspective
More than that house where nothing ever goes right
More than those friends that always leave you drained and insecure
More than society’s opinions and must exist scenarios
Open your heart
Open your mind
I know it’s not as easy as reading about it or typing it out
But you need to want to heal, you need to need to heel
Pray about it everyday, God listens
May you heal from everything that breaks your heart and soul
And become whole again
You are loved❤